Symptoms of a broken hearted girl

There i was lying on my bed feeling weak, tired and frustrated and wondering why i was crying for no reason. I mean i was seriously crying my heart out and i didn't even know why. I stopped for a moment to think..what is wrong with me, why do i feel so sad and why am i crying but then it dawned on me what the matter was/is. Am actually feeling the symptoms of a broken heart. But how..why..why would i be feeling this way when i was the one who decided to call it off. But then i stopped to think again and asked myself is it worth staying in it if it doesn't make you feel happy? The answer to that would be no.

I have come to realise in these couple of days that when the heart grieves,she does it with soul. She doesn't rush herself, she doesn't stay on the surface, she doesn't do what's suppose to be done.

When the heart is breached by loss, betrayed, confused or traumatised she feels the blow. She shakes and trembles and she forgets how to breath or go on. But she knows what she has to do to survive. She knows what she has to do to heal. She has to feel all of it......everything. The pain, the loss, the fury, the devastation, the sudden confusion, the emptiness, the ache that never seems to go away. she has to feel every bit of it, so she can learn to live again.

I've been TAGGED

I got tagged by a very nicer blogger amakaobi.blspot.co.uk and i am finally anwering the tag after 4 months smh (shaking my head)....shame on me *somebody shout praise the Lord* . well it's not my fault, been busy.

So there are rules in the tagging game and here they are:

1.  Post rules (Done that)
2.  Post 11 random things about yourself
3.  Answer questions posted by the person who tagged you
4.  Create 11 questions and tag 11 people to answer your questions
5.  Notify those tagged of the game
6.  Notify the person who tagged you after you have answered the questions
7.  No tag backs

Ok so 11 random things about me.

1. I am a fake shopaholic cos i get tired of going from one shop to the other...i think its stressful
2. I think am too of a bitch sometimes for no reason...smh for myself
3. Got a crush on Usher
4. I have an obessessive habit of cleaning the kitchen before i start cooking
5. Sometimes i talk too much
6. Am stupidly addicted to my bbm...and come across as anti-social sometimes
7. I have a weakness for cute guys
8. I love too danceeeeeeee
9. I get irritated real fast
10. Am just way too caring
11. I always go out of my way to please people...something am trying to stop cos i don't get the act reciprocated.

Now time to answe questions from Amaka..

1.All conditions being equal, what career would u choose?- Currently doing a masters in HR..so that's  me taking a step towards the career path i always wanted.

2. What is your most annoying habit? - I don't have patience

3. Which celebrity do you sometimes wish you were best friends with?- Eva Longoria

4. What little things could make your day?- Don't know really it could be anything

5. What is your favourite color? Why?- Purple...it makes me smile. i feel pretty in it

6. Describe your dream partner- His in my dream can't get to him right now

7. If you were president of Nigeria, how would u handle this Boko Haram issue? - Hmmmmm.....can't really say what's on my mind right now......cos if i tell you hmmmm

8. What do u think of Aki and Pawpaw (the actors)? - Nothing...don't watch their movies,not into nija movies really they annoy me too much

9. What was ur most cherished birthday present ever? and ur worst?- A wrist watch....i guess my worst was really worst cause i can't remember

10. Describe the moment that makes you smile everytime you remember it.- Plenty moments really

11. What kind of person do you think the person behind Amaka's notepad is? - Not sure really but she sounds like a nice person and am sure we would get along.

My 11 questions

1. What is the craziest thing you have ever done?

2. If you had a chance to choice a different country to come from which would it be?

3. What is your favourite past time?

4. If you could change one thing about yourself..what would it be?

5. What ticks you off?

6. What is your weakest link?

7. If you had a chance to go on a date with someone famous who would it be?

8. Do you think you have choosen the right career path?

9.  If you had healing powers what would it be?

10. What do you think of my blog and does it makke any sense?

11. In all honesty..who do you think the person behind Me.U and Life is?

  

My 11 tagees

1. Honeydame
2. Priscy
3. Tunmama
4. Missy Tee's
5. Sisi Yemmie
6.  Toin
7. Sugarbelly 
8. Myne 
9. AbimpyMoschino 
10.  Veronoba 

 Sorry didn't know who to add as 11. I just realised i don't follow that many blogs and am sure there are some really nice ones out there that i don't know about. If you do...recommend for  me ok.

 There done..am going off to do 5 and 6.

xoxo
Chantel

GHOST FROM THE PAST

Ok ok am sorry. 'Am sorry' is not something i say that often unless i truly mean it and yes i mean it this time.
I have been like missing in action for maybe heaven knows how long cos me sef i don't have a clue. it's not my fault o *someone has to be blamed* i have been dead busy with summer school. yes na me like school pass so i decided to do summer school before my masters. you can't blame me o jare when person don leave school for like 5 years the brain can't be so fresh now. *ok back to britico english* yes i happen to have picked up the accent in just 3 months *excuse u, say whatever u like is for ya head o, in yoruba voice*
Anyhow i haven't blogged cos i have been dead busy trying to round up with summer school and enjoy my life before sept but it seems like that ain't happening either as man like money and man must work.lol.
I saw all the tags o i shall be replying to them but ermmmm i am planning to leave blogville and start a wordpress instead i don't know sha i have not made up my mind.


hmmmmm another gist,so today i was in my room sleeping and when i woke up i was feeling blue so i decided to follow my 'friend' out and we went to this chinese supermarket to buy stuff cos it was her turn to cook for her flatmates anyhow sha long story short on our way back to uni we were sitting at the train station waiting for the train and i somehow started to 'thinking dey go far' only heaven knows what i was thinking about and where the hell my mind went to, and the train came and i jumped into the train and somehow left my bag with all my life possessions inside chai. We had gotten to two stations when i realized my precious bag wasn't with me ha mogbe my last card *money* was inside my bag chai i started to shake like wet chicken infact the wee that i had been holding since was getting ready to drop, that was how i jumped out and started to head back to where i was coming from to look for my bag all this while praying in my mind my bag was still there. But of cos the train going back took forever to come ha mogbe and then my friend tot we should go tell security to call the station and find out if someone found the bag and when they called yes the bag was there WHEW big relive i was glad. I got back to the other train station and picked my bag, the moment the security saw me he knew i was the owner of the bag as e don scope me from him camera chai see how security camera good sometimes.My money and all the contents of my bag was there and intact. oyibo good sometimes o. And then i tot about my dear country.......and the rest is history.


*if you see any mistake correct it in your mind* i don finish exam my brain is on vacation.




xoxo

Team Work

You know how when your writing your CV and you put 'Team work' as one of the things you are good at? Well have you ever considered for a second if you are really a team player.Cos you see there is a difference when you say something and when you can actually do what you say or show it when the time comes. 

Most of the time right,we say these things cos we want the job and we are trying to impress the person reading the CV. Its different when you are working with your friends and you all can get along,or when your working with people you know. When you have to work with different people from a different work of life who don't view things the way you view them or see them or even think, then you would truly know if you are a team player or not. In my last job i had to collaborate with people from other departments to get information or get a particulare job done and it was kinda not so hard and i tot to myself oh yer am a team player. But all of a sudden am in a different country and meeting people from different parts of the world who view things in a totally different way and it made me start to question if am truly a team player. I don't want to not call myself one cos i got on fine with some people and not with some. So maybe when am done with this school i would have learnt how to be a proper team player and be able to accomodate everyone.